Smitten Kitten

I'm turning the pages

Just wanna be in love forever and ever

You and me always together 

And I know I don't wanna cry no more

I can't, no more

Feels just like I'm falling in love

That verse of Falling in Love from Ironik ft. Jessica Lowndes was written on my Path status, then my boyfriend laughed to that. I remember it was after a night when he confessed to me through WhatsApp. That night I was hanging out with my coworkers, whom are now his ex-coworkers, I laughed with them while my focus was frequently distracted with his messages. LOL.

Yes, I am currently in love.

Not falling in love, since it's too mainstream. I'm crawling, drowning, melting, and dying in love.

It has not been too long yet, only a month and some days. I  even just met him around 4 months ago. We are getting closer since around 3 months ago. We haven't had too much time yet, but I am dying in love with this guy. He is not totally my type (wearing eyeglasses-skinny-geeky-tall), not even a good looking one. He ain't a scientist, a lawyer instead. I never wanted to date or even marry a lawyer, but this time the story is different.

An ex-coworker asked me 'why him? He's not a handsome or such one' and I answered 'it's not only the eyes that see, isn't it?'

I don't give a sh*t about anything, the only things that I care about are that we love each other and we belong together. I am not perfect, so is he, but we are perfect together. 

I feel smitten kitten.

While having this beautiful, cute, sweet feeling, I was suddenly inspired to write a poem titled with a 'hey', then I came up with this 'Hey Love!'. I don't know why I had such idea, but maybe I just watched New Girl on tv, and inspired with its theme song titled 'Hey Girl!' which is written and performed by beautiful Ms. Zooey Deschanel.

Do you love it or hate it? Because I turn out to love it so much. I love the words, and the title itself. I had twice set it as my status in BlackBerry Messenger.

Let's go looking back some moments before
I lost myself, then found that place therefore
I saw you and knew your name afterwards
Realized you were a reason I move forward

But all we did was quarelling before everyone
Denying how we were so desired to be one

Hey love, have you found what you look for?
I have a faith that you're what I'm looking for
Your infinite cuteness in all those acts and words
Weaken me on my knees, leave me out of words

Hey love, stay with me today and forever
Don't leave, don't even try to find another
I crave every single piece that you ever have
Hey love, you cast my fear and turn me brave

Now here is us, cross-admired, paralyzed
In the warmth of heart, we are synchronized

Oh God why, you make me crawling in love
My body and soul fall to the ground
Give me all your compensation, hey love
Just Say you love me in unlimited amount

Touch my hand and hold all of mine with yours
Hey love, without any doubt I'm wholly yours

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My Way Home

I wrote a new poem. Actually I already wrote it on my notebook in the middle of a meeting, since I was sleepy and I've always wanted to write this poem. But then I forgot to rewrite it on my phone, so that I decided to write a new one on my way home from office, in taxi.

When I thought I should rewrite this poem on phone, I already knew that I would make a lot of revisions since I was not satisfied with the content. But then instead of it, I wrote a new one with the sort of same theme, and it turned out to be a much better one and I seem to fall for it. I did not remember exactly what I wrote in notebook, which made me worried, but now I think I'm glad that I forgot.

By the way, I'm sleepy. Why's ripping a CD taking so much time? ( ._.)/|sleepy|

And then I came up with this poem. I first planned to title it 'Home', but according to the last content, 'A Way Home' suits best. I don't think I need to explain what this poem is about, since it's alrady obvious. Also whom has inspired me, it's also obvious.

Well, love it or hate it?

I love it a lot, thank God. Finally I can make a new poem that I can love beside The Awkward Trial. I love the words I chose, also the plot of the story.

The closed doors are everywhere to knock

I walked as fast as the ticking of the clock

Brought up my key to open the lock

Gave no damn to people who mocked

I tried, prayed, failed, got up again

Struggled to shine my light under the rain

While the wounds only worsen my pain

And the blood slowly ran out from my vein

Until I saw your little light in disguise

Led me to a hope that I might rise

Hurt and doubtful, I dared myself to step

Hopelessly worked to shorten the gap

To you I consciously ran without map

My purpose was only your heart to wrap

Your door was surprisingly unlocked

While no one but me you let entered

The welcome was cold, I was trembled

But there I understood what you needed

I know anywhere else but I don't want those

Your conformity has brought me overdose

Just through a softness within your voice

You turned me calm out of all my noise

I finally find my way home

A place where I'm always allowed to come

This is the end of my long painful journey

I belong here from now on, yours truly

Holding your hand, facing the world I'm ready

Twenty four/seven is what you'll have with me

Your Ľovε is the only thing I recognize

My all is delivered to you without compromise

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A Sense of Completion

I've got somewhere I belong

I've got somebody to love

This is what dreams are made of

That verse of Hillary Duff's What Dreams Are Made Of is supposed to be perfect to be my birthday theme song. Because it happens to me.

I was just celebrating my 16th 26th birthday. At this age, I nearly have everything a girl could dream of, if I couldn't say 'I do have'. 

I have an amazing supportive family. I have real friends I can hold on to. I have a job I've always dreamed to work. I have adorable bright coworkers. I have been some steps ahead of becoming a lawyer, with a little precious help from a lover that I love who loves me properly. 

I don't need any birthday presents. I already have my life as one. Doesn't mean I will reject the given ones, though. LOL.

I blew candles for 4 times since I got 4 cakes. 

Oh and since I'm so very happy, I finally wrote a new poem. Honestly, this is the final part of the trilogy started with The Awkward Trial, then Focus, and it ends with this Imprisoned in Completion. Yes, I have written 2 poems about my journey to wrap him, my current boyfriend, but I did not admit it since I was not sure about the end. LOL. 

Well, I don't really like this one, though. My most favorite is still The Awkward Trial. But please check it out, and say whether you love or hate it.

I watched you there hanging around

Looking at me like I'm a victim you found

Made my heart beat in uncountable amount

I knew you worth more than to be a rebound

You are undoubtedly sentenced for a crime

For stealing all my love when I resisted

You will be jailed for an unlimited time

Imprisoned from now forever in my heart

At the night that I investigated you

You just simply told me 'I love you'

No witnesses to prove that it was true

I was left with no choice but saying 'Me too'

The file of my life is finally completed

It is ready to be sumbitted to the court

Your status is not anymore a suspect

A prisoner instead, trapped in my world

Side by side we walk to completion

This mutual feeling would be wholly accepted

We might not be something like perfection

But who cares since our souls are bonded

It is now proved that you're all I need

Verdict issued, I'm what you waited

For being in love, we both are punished

As the pleasure we know won't be vanished

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