A Night to Remember: Love You at Your Worst

If you feel familiar with the title, I'm not surprised. This is the sequel of my previous posts about a song I wrote with friends and a small live show in fX.

In the beginning of February, I went karaoke again with my songwriting friends Budi, Dwan, and Endy. But since Endy was curious with my friend's voice, Gita, and we had a chance to ask out Alit, the singer of Love You at Your Worst, also Endah, another friend of ours, 7 people went dinner and karaoke together.

The epic moment was not the noisy karaoke session, but the small live show we made after. Again, since the piano and sound system were still in fX, we played that again, but now we sang Love You at Your Worst, and it was recorded. Poor that there was no mic, so if you want to listen to the vocal you must turn loudest your speaker volume.

Turn out, that was a good one. I don't know why in the chorus part I messed up with my low voice, making as if the song was performed duet LOL. I was so happy that my song could really be performed. As the songwriter, I feel proud and amazed at the same time. Probably every songwriter feels the same way in the first time his/her song is performed. 

 the Love You at Your Worst team

But after the performance was finished, out of nowhere a security came and told us not to play the piano, even asked us where we were from. When we told him we were just visitors, he forbid us to play, so we stopped while we planned to perform another song. The awkward thing was we were stopped right before the second performance, it was as if the security waited for us to finish the first performance to warn us. LOL. 

After all, we had a great night. Gotta do it all again!

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It Comes True!

Again, I have a dream and it comes true.

Last year, I had a dream of drawing 'today was a fairytale' and I made it true by drawing using MS Paint. This year, another dream has been true. I have dreamed about this since last year, but I just made it true this year. 

No, not I. It should be 'we'.

Finally, one of my short poem, At Your Worst, turned into a beautiful song titled 'Love You at Your Worst'. Turned into music and lyrics, performed by an awesome vocal.  

I really lost words to write, still I'm excited and amazed, since this is an awesome beautiful song, and some people love the lyrics adapted from my poem. I feel awesome, totally. 

Well, please listen and download the song here. 

All thanks to Endy, Budi, Dwan, and Alit. You guys have done so well, my dream comes true because of all of you! 

Dream comes true

It's so funny now that I see

How different life turned out to be

I realize that it's my destiny

by the way, Kat is so pretty in this performance totally distracted

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A Night to Remember

What is the craziest amusing thing you ever did with your friends?

I have a lot of. But the one thing I remember most is the musical night with my boys Budi, Dwan, and Endy in last Thursday, December 29, 2011. Why I remember the date is because it happened not too long ago, and by the end of the 2011. 

So, that day, we had a karaoke in Inulvista fX because one of my boys, Endy, who composed a song from my poem, wanted to listen to our voices before recording. Since the only one of us who has a sample recorded voice was Dwan, Budi suggested us to do karaoke together for a kind of live audition. This was funny as if it was serious, and we kinda related it with our plan to enter Indonesian Idol audition for we had already registered as participants LOL.

At the karaoke, we sang like crazy. Don't think that we did it seriously, because we didn't. We sang too high and too low, most of the time not connected with the melody LOL but it was totally fun to sing like almost screaming, going crazy with friends like that. I admit that I went all-out, releasing all the negative energy until only the positive one remained. I don't know the boys, but I love most when Budi and Dwan held the microphone to sing I Want It That Way by Backstreet Boys and I Drive Myself Crazy by N'SYNC while I and Endy did the backing vocal without mic. It was really laughable and memorable, to me, out of the rest of the songs we sang. 

Then, it was decided that the one who will sing the new song, Love You At Your Worst, is me featuring Budi and Dwan. That was acceptable, and I'd love to sing my own song with my adorable friends.  

After karaoke-ing, we sat in Sate Khas Senayan, and thank God the order was closed because we didn't mean to eat anything there, only wanted to sit LOL. Right before us there was a piano with its speakers. We joked like 'can I play it like David Archuleta?' or 'will we get busted if we try to play it?' until things like 'if someone tried to play it, you must play it, Ndy.' LOL. And guess what? A kid, maybe teenager, PLAYED it and didn't get busted! So when the kid left the piano, we came and tried to play it.

And yes, we did not get busted at all. Not only securities, I bet nobody really cared of what we were doing. Endy played the piano while I, Budi, and Dwan sang to every song he played. We really were like real singers, real musicians LOL. And of course, because we really love taking pictures, we took some photos with the piano. okay this is freak but damn we really did it

They were not all the photos, but I think enough representing our night. I don't know why Torchy's camera didn't seem to work well. Honestly two days before this day I dropped Torchy twice and hard, because there was a hole I late recognized on my hotpants pocket -____-

Back to the story, we took photos and sang some songs, but only until one chorus of each song. Aw I nearly forgot, the first time Endy touched the piano, he straight played Love You At Your Worst and sang it. I listened closely and...mother of God, my knees were weak! It was such a damn sweet song! I can't almost believe that my poem could really be a song, as I always dreamed about. I love the lyrics, love the piano line, I hope that I can sing it at my best when I record it. While I still in this post, I think I must give a huge thank to Endy for changing my plain poem into a beautiful song :)

The epic moment started here. When we sang the beginning of Adele's Someone Like You, some people came over, turn out two of them were Endy's friends. Back then, WE JUST SANG THE CHORUS PART TOGETHER! And we sang it until the end of the song. Damn, it really was a musical flashmob! What I used to do with Budi and Dwan is dance flashmob, but this one was a singing flashmob. Someone played the instrument, few of people sing to it, then some people come over, singing. 

When the song was over, we introduced ourselves to each others, and then left the piano, went home. Nahhh, we didn't really go home right away, because after Endy went downstairs to the parking lot, I, Budi and Dwan were still going to the toilet, on the way there we talked about what we just did. We came up with an idea of an arranged musical flashmob like that, instead of the dance one. But it was just a crazy idea coming up after doing a crazy thing.

I went home with a cab, thinking of what we just did. I was amazed. Damn, we gotta do that again. We. Got. To. Do. That. Again.

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Rhythm of Love

Hello again! 

Well, so, yesterday noon I was like possessed by a flirty poetic spirit. in Plurk, I made a random post including its responses. I wrote some kind of poem, but more like a story with so much poetic words like metaphors. I made a long one until I got tired.

I really was carried on. I was possessed. I didn't understand what was got into me, I just smoothly wrote everything. One thing I still aware about is the inspiration source, which I won't explain here because it's a top secret. I just didn't know how it can be so long, so huge. 

So this one poem is about being attracted to someone you know. Someone who is physically attractive at first, but then everything about this person affects you like giving you more energy and hypnotize you, and when you're with this person you hear a melody called love.

 

words were spoken softly
through that electrical voice
smile was carved perfectly
came up with unforgettable laughter

boosted up all the lost energy
in this tired body
until мγ two feet were ready
to tap on the dance floor

was just mξ but felt as if
your pretty eyes were staring at these moves

was helplessly nothing but moving
through the music with empty head

heart skipped the beats
rhyming through мγ tapping feet
over and over until I can’t count
as I knew yőυ were standing there

I ran back to yőυ
right when the melody was stopped
but all I heard was nothing through мγ ears
but the rhythm of Ľovε

do you love it or hate it? this is just the first five verses out of, correct me if I'm wrong, 13 verses. The post I made in Plurk was so long, so I must split them into more than a poem. This one is the first, which title is like the title of this post. Please give comments!

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Melody

Sooooooooooo Plurk is under maintenance again! I have nothing to do, got no task from boss nor clients, and I'm too lazy studying for bar exam. I had made one power of attorney and now I want some rest, period.

Because of I have nothing to do (but tweeting stupidly with massive Plurkers who usually move to Twitter when Plurk is under maintenance), I remember a poem I want to write. So this morning I got two ideas to write, one is about 'fixing broken relationship' and the other is about 'staying close to someone'. Since the current condition is closer to the first one, so I wrote the first one first. What, repeating? LOL

Have you ever had a good relationship with a friend? You were always together every day and night like you stick to each other, and because of whatsoever short distance you frequently spent times together, just the two of you? Until suddenly, you don't understand why, but your friend acted colder to you and you couldn't stand it so you acted as cold as your friend. Both of you suddenly disconnected, while you know you had some things you can only share with each others. You become strangers to each others. You don't understand your friend, neither does your friend to you. But you two still have something to hold on. The only thing that still connects you, while the rest fails.

 

Yőυ were ♏y melody
I sang about yőυ every night
Can't stop yoυя name rhyming in ♏y head
I remember those perfect days

Now the sky turns darker
As yoυя eyes grow so much colder
I can't hold on yőυ any longer
For nowhere wε'll be never

I try to find the broken pieces
Collect and compound one to others
But no matter how hard I try
No matter how hard yőυ try
Our links have been missing somewhere
And wε fail to find them anywhere

Our hearts lost the connection
Couldn't see yőυ as I did
The way yőυ don't get mξ right
There's no more left of us

But the melody stays around
As the only piece I can find
The only treasure worth holding on
As the rest is disappeared and gone

I don't understand why I finally titled this poem as 'melody', but maybe because it's the meaning of my friend's name and it's the only thing that keeps us together. The truth is I and my friend are strangers to each others since the first time we met until now. I realize that the togetherness we shared was like forced, just because we must spend time together for the 'whatsoever short distant.' But we have one thing that we both love, the really only one thing that ties us.  

It's music.

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Simple is Beautiful

Lately I feel so hard to find good local songs. Well seriously their themes are only around broken hearts, uneasy feelings, and wanting to die. What can be taught to people, especially children, with such kind of lyrics?

I really miss old local songs, when musicians wrote about beautiful love, sweet life, admiration to adorable people, to lovers, and such things, with beautiful words like poems.

But beautiful words like poems don't seem to be the nowadays trend. Musicians now are more into simple words, straight to the point. Well I can't say it's a bad thing too, because people do change, they like things said straight to the point more. Besides, simple words can still be beautiful depends on the content of the lyrics and how the music goes.

So, I surprisingly found two local songs with simple lyrics but still cute, still beautiful, and still teaching good things.

this video above is Yang Kunanti performed by the handsome singer Ello. He , with his beautiful voice, sings (and composed, maybe?) a song about finding a perfect person after getting hurt so many times. The perfect person who completes him and makes him believe in love again. Such a simple beautiful lyrics in beautiful cheerful music. This song teaches positive things to people, especially to broken-hearted ones, not to stop believing in love. Not to stop knowing that there's somebody out there destined to each of us.

the video above is not a video, because the song hasn't been a clip video. it's titled Pertanda Cinta performed by Vierra, a group motored by an amazing sweet pianist Kevin Aprilio. the song itself is about falling in love (with a boy, because the vocalist is a girl) and she wants him to notice her signs of love. She wants him to do this and that because she falls in love with him and wants to be with him, but all she can do is just giving signs. Cute one, and positive too, so cheering and full of youth love. The simple lyrics match the cheerful music, and this teaches something about showing love to the opposites we have crush on.

So, simple lyrics can still be beautiful, equal as the poetic lyrics. But it depends on the content of the lyrics. I hope there would be more and more Indonesian musicians who will compose positive songs like songs I talked about above :)

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A B*tch Like Me

If there were a job that I am 100% qualified to fill, it must have been a b*tch.

Why?

Well, it's obvious. I'm so b*tchy, maybe even b*tchier than any b*tches in this world.


First of all, I'm a hater. Yeah, a hater. Hater who is gonna hate. If you might be one of my Twitter followers, you will see my harsh tweet, full of hate.

I hate the government of this country, its bureaucracy, its complicated procedures, its broken system, and its corrupt people. I hate the leaders of this country who are so slow in reacting whenever an issue about public welfare, health, safety, etc. comes up. I hate the president of this country who only thinks about his image, who is so lame, so chicken, and so crybaby. He's a total drag queen. King. Whatever.

I hate music in this country. I hate singers, and those who mention themselves as musicians, who don't have talent and will, but still recording lame songs and sell them in market, and give people no choices, make people must love it because it's the only choice. I hate their lame crybaby music, I hate their broken lyrics that destroy the face of art, because there is no more beauty there.

I hate media in this country. I hate those female magazines because they always push fat women, yet stand on skinny women's side as if fatties don't deserve to live. I hate those religious magazines that spread hate to other religions. I hate newspapers because of their absurd and one-sided news. I hate TV's, the most, for its useless programs that don't give education, for its sh*tty sinetron and reality shows, and of course those damn stupid infotainment.

Second, I don't love and trust anyone. I just make friends with people I like and liking me, and try to act nice to them so that they'll be nice to me. I try to be a good dependable person, but I don't expect anything from anyone. If they like me, they'll stay. If they don't, they may leave.

Third, I am not religious. I have one, but it's just to worship God. Religion, to me, is a way to worship God and a guidebook to treat God's creatures. I don't dress the way my religion asks. I rarely read my holy book because I've finished reading it for about 3-5 times. I do prayers, as early as I could, but I am okay with doing it kinda late. I don't hear people who said 'doing prayers in the last minutes wouldn't be accepted by God' because they are damn not God! I like people who have different religions with mine, and to team up with them is fun. I even sometimes wanna join their feasts just because they look fun, just because I can meet so many people and having fun with them.

Forth, I am cynical. Yeah, I guess I was born this way. My close friend in high school told her best friend before me like this: 'look at how she speaks, then don't wonder if I speak cynically to you'. I don't mind with that. That friend of mine doesn't mind too. Almost everyone never been troubled with that. This is me. How I speak is something attached to me, it's a trademark. That was why when one of my ex said he hated my cynical speak and asked me to change it, I yelled a lot in Twitter after we broke up. Wow, yeah, that's so b*tch of me.

Fifth, I love power. I'm dreaming of an authority. I want to be a leader. I want to own a TV station, I want to lead PSSI, I want to be a president of this country, and being other leaders I might haven't think about yet. Guys are afraid of me because of this, that is why no matter how pretty I am, most men always end up as my friends, not more. They can't seem to handle me. I don't care, I don't need being handled, I can take care of myself. And I think I just haven't met a man who can handle me. Yeah, that outstanding man who was made for a b*tch. LOL.

Sixth, I don't easily smile to people.

Seventh, I am moody, which is getting worse in PMS period.

Eighth, I am rebellious, even to my parents. They wanted me to go to science class (IPA) in high school, I went to social class (IPS). They wanted me to be a doctor or designer, I wanted to be a lawyer. They put me in design school, I went to law school. They want me to apply job as public employee (PNS), I applied in private companies and law firms. But in the end I'm still their b*tchy little girl, so they could only support this stubborn me. Thanks, parents, for understanding this b*tch so well. LOL.

Well, is that all? I have no idea. Maybe some friends of mine can add more, I know they know better than me about this b*tchy me. All I know is I'm officially a b*tch and I'm not ashamed to say it. I rather say I'm a b*tch instead of a saint, because saying that I'm a saint gives a heavy burden and social responsibility that I might not be able to handle. If I claimed myself as a saint, I must do all the good things properly in the straight way, and once I turned aside, I would not forgive myself and people in this world would despise and judge me as if they're the real saints.

So, I don't wanna burden myself, not even other people.

I'm a b*tch, and I'm okay with that.

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Adam Lambert: Whole in One Package and Special Treatments

Ahem. well, again, this post is about that adorable amazing musician, Adam Lambert.

what makes me fall so deep for him is not because I watched every week of American Idol season 8 last year, since I had no cable TV yet last year. instead, I first listened to his voice in the coronation song, No Boundaries. right when I listened and compared it to Kris Allen's version, I have known who should have won that contest. No Boundaries is an awesome track with cool music and deep lyrics. Kris made it easy-listening, good one. but Adam put the soul into the track, so that I (and probably some listeners somewhere) can feel what the composer wants to say through that song.

that day, I knew a star has been born.

as time passed by, I see how Adam is not only a new star-born. he got experience since he was so young, he even ever made an album before came to Idol. ah, but, that recording was not that good, at least in my opinion, it was not like Adam singing those songs because the songs are plain, there are no difficulties singing them, there are no high notes nor complicated arrangement. too easy for an Adam Lambert, I guess.

I also see how Adam has a lot of genius fans (including me LOL). the genius fans who never cared of his sexuality, his too-edgy appearance, his controversial performances, and whatever people hates about him. the genius fans are focusing only to his style and talent. to his music. to his voice. isn't it sweet? Adam's so very lucky to have such fans. and he didn't make fans that way, instead he's done a hard work during the Idol and previously gained stage and singing experiences through those opera shows.

well, let's stop the compliments about him, I bet I'll take everyday to give him compliments and praises, like what I do on Twitter lately LOL. what I really, really mind about him is the special treatments and rights he got after the Idol.

what special rights? oh don't tell me you don't know. every Glambert must knows No Boundaries were recorded for Adam and Kris. No Boundaries is a coronation song which should have been the winner's, and only the winner's.

I want to give an example about this coronation song stuff. American Idol season 7 had David Cook as the winner, and David Archuleta as the runner-up. the coronation song was The Time of My Life, which was sang by two of them before the winner was announced. it means there were also 2 versions of the song. but when I search everywhere, I never ever found The Time of My Life in Archuleta's version. I only and always found Cook's, whether it is the studio version or the stage version. seems like no one is allowed to upload the Archie's version because the song has legally become Cookie's. and that way, The Time of My Life is David Cook's song.

correct me if I'm wrong, but wasn't the winner of Idol season 8 Kris Allen? it should have made No Boundaries legally his, no? while in reality, I don't know the consideration but Adam also recorded No Boundaries. and those two versions are available in an album: The American Idol Season 8. furthermore, in that album, every contestant should have recorded only one song, right? there might be special treatment for the winner, okay, he/she is allowed to record more than a song.

it was not happening to that compilation album. what happened was: Adam and Kris recorded No Boundaries in their own version, Kris recorded She Works Hard for The Money, Adam recorded Mad World.

what happen to the label actually? they let the runner-up do the same exact things with the winner. they give Adam the same right with Kris. they got the same treatment, while people knows exactly that the winner is Kris and the runner-up is Adam. name those special rights now: (1) coronation song, (2) more than one recording in compilation album.

and the newest special right is (3) the Idol mentoring. for the first time in history, an Idol alumni becomes the guest mentor for current Idol contestants. say, I don't have to tell you that (again and again) Adam has been chosen to mentor the Idol season 9's contestants.

this number (3) right is, I think, too much. now Adam got another special right more than every Idol winner ever had. it was okay that he was the first performer in VH1 Unplugged, since it was all about his own album. but now, he is the first Idol guest-mentor from Idol alumni? honestly, really, I'm thinking as deep as I can think about this matter. is it now still about Adam's talent? he might recorded 2 songs, including the coronation track, because he's talented and wanted and it was too bad if he only recorded a song in that album. but, first Idol guest-mentor? hello?

I'm a Glambert, one of those genius fans, and I deeply love Adam. I think of him and listen to his songs 24/7. but in this case, I must see things objectively. this is not fair. I'm sorry, Glamberts, but this is not fair. Adam is a runner-up from season 8. he only had passed a year after his season. his singles and album might be sold out and reach high position in charts everywhere, but he's still so very new to showbiz world. I can't disagree of what some people say, that some former Idols deserve this right more than Adam. they can give this opportunity to Kelly Clarkson, Fantasia Barrino, Carrie Underwood, or maybe to David Cook. somehow, Adam's still too fresh for this job.

ah but at least I find this condition better than before, when they invited Miley Cyrus as guest mentor LOL.

I'm thinking and thinking. the more I think the more I worry and am terrified of what happens to Adam this far. I remember how some old teenagers made breakthrough in music-biz and now they are nowhere. they're still known, but their songs are no more hits. their albums are no more sold-out. name some of them: Avril Lavigne, Britney Spears, Hanson, and those girl and boy bands. they're known, still, but their songs are not the upper-hits anymore.

that's what I don't want to happen to Adam. he's way too good to be in such condition. he got style and talent in one package. it's a precious thing not every artist/performer can have. showbiz, music-biz, whatever entertainment world would lose a real entertainer if it happened to Adam. that is why I don't really like that he got too much special rights and treatments this soon.

but oh well, despite all those worries and probability, I still think, consider, make some discussions, watch Idol this season, and many things. in the end, I guess I realize that Adam deserves to be a guest mentor in Idol this season. because he might be the one and only contestant who has style, talent, and identity. what I say identity is the character of his voice. no matter what genre he brings, we can still recognize and say: oh, this is Adam Lambert! and he sings in his own way, no matter what the genre is.

stage performance : checked. studio recording: checked. voice range: checked. voice character: checked. fashion style: checked. attitude: checked. professionalism: checked. genius fans: checked.

well Adam, I think you now perfectly harvest what you have planted since long ago.

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Look into my eyes, Baby, eyes

you know what? we need to thank YouTube and its friendly video uploaders. I don't have MTv in my darn cable TV so I didn't watch Adam Lambert's fab performance on VH1 Unplugged, but all of the videos are now available on YouTube.

anyway, this is one of my favorite Adam's song and performance (I love all of them actually, but this is one of them)



Music Again is the first track on the album For Your Entertainment. deeply I have fallen in love with this song ever since the first time the CD was still tested in the store, but maybe I won't fall so deep if the singer's not my fantastic Adam :)

I always, always pay big attention to the amazing very high notes in the part 'look into my eyes, Baby, eyes' while thinking how come Adam can sing it as well. he made it even real in some of his live show, which make me wow too much LOL. but in this unplugged version, that 'look into my eyes, Baby, eyes' part wasn't sang in high notes. Adam made it low and a little plain, but it was smooth and so very easy listening, so that the song doesn't lose its value at all. even it becomes one of my favorite Adam's performance.

oh well, I think it's enough. just enjoy the video, Readers, because if I don't stop then I can spend all day and night writing about Adam here LOL

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If I were A Musician...

Adam Lambert. come on, what can I say? of course I am dreaming to be like him, sing and perform like him if I were a musician. low notes, high notes, whatever notes he can sing well. he can do up beat, slow beat, and whatever kind of music. poor, he wasn't the winner of American Idol 2009 (only the runner-up), but who the heck cares? his album, For Your Entertainment is a superb thing! I bet nobody can get bored easily listening to this album, since there are sooo many kind of music and song he sings. the great thing is he never lost his identity no matter what kind of song he sings. his vocal definitely belongs to only him.



Adam Young a.k.a Owl City. LOL it's kinda funny to have idols in the same first names, huh? sooo why would I become like Owl City if I were a musician? the answer is nothing but the music and the fabulous lyrics. oh! I almost forgot to mention that he is the same age as me! well...I adore his music and lyrics, but getting more infatuated when I know that 'age' fact LOL. in the same age as me, he is an expert of creating such complicated electronic pop music. it must take superb talent, too, to be able to make lyrics like his. well, I don't understand much about electronic pop, so I pay more attention to the fab lyrics. Owl City combines natural elements with general situations in human's life, mostly love. and when they're combined, the lyrics come to be sooo very very romantic and meaningful. one of his track in Ocean Eyes album, which was in his old album, Maybe I'm Dreaming, is the most romantic song I ever known, and it's titled The Saltwater Room.

poor me, I have been too old to start becoming a musician, I don't have voice like Lambert's and I can't play music like Young. if only I were reborn, I really would study vocals and instruments.

p.s: in some of my next posts, I'll write in Bahasa Indonesia ;)

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